tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6727152802999270186.post8341765481689818615..comments2011-01-11T12:09:49.057+10:00Comments on Cocoon Life: November SongRebecca Saundershttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02989087346478194985noreply@blogger.comBlogger15125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6727152802999270186.post-71260247426631932442010-11-26T22:42:20.688+10:002010-11-26T22:42:20.688+10:00It is all so sad, coming across all the blogs and ...It is all so sad, coming across all the blogs and videos all in one week touches me with compassion one minute and makes me want to run from your pain (and mine) by switching off my cfs friends and finding something else, so I click, click on some stupid brain-dead game and I would never play games on the computer until this year. It is so unlike me but maybe now it is me - got to have some distraction from pain when you can't cry any more.<br /><br />I know I am crying inside - but no tears come now UNLESS I am talking to someone else - but having a listening ear and a chance to cry to someone else is becoming less and less available as I become more and more isolated. Yeah, it's November and last November was not good either - could be the weather?? Low pressure, cloudy aches. I am dreading Summer heat too.<br /><br />I know this is cold comfort but I married and had kids and of course I love them but my illness helped end the marriage and rearing the boys as a single Mum was also very cruel on the body and as it turns out both my boys have not coped very well with life and my inconsistency. They hated me for being in bed too much but I pushed so hard for them and have never been appreciated for it. I went back to study and later some part-time work despite being ill and lasted just long enough to get them to adulthood and now it is supposed to be time for me and I cannot do what I want anyway. Darn it.Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6727152802999270186.post-30499903237851742732010-11-26T15:57:13.049+10:002010-11-26T15:57:13.049+10:00Thanks Laura!Thanks Laura!Rebecca Saundershttps://www.blogger.com/profile/02989087346478194985noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6727152802999270186.post-62141354814256376462010-11-26T15:34:02.582+10:002010-11-26T15:34:02.582+10:00this is beautiful! you have such a way with words...this is beautiful! you have such a way with words. true writing talent. I love when you say you are determined to experience wholeness and wellness. I am bound determined for it too, and we will get there on this journey together.Laurahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/00557166038579226894noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6727152802999270186.post-17312581232252916842010-11-26T08:24:21.721+10:002010-11-26T08:24:21.721+10:00Hey Lee Lee,
Grief is one of the most amazing subj...Hey Lee Lee,<br />Grief is one of the most amazing subjects...I feel that one day I will write a lot more about it...like you say it's something we don't talk about and yet we wonder why it is so hard to deal with...I would love to see a world that is free and open to share about it, experience it, and truly release it.<br /><br />I look forward to reading your post in December...will arm myself with tissues! LOL<br />xxxRebecca Saundershttps://www.blogger.com/profile/02989087346478194985noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6727152802999270186.post-45711344233407409942010-11-26T08:18:25.390+10:002010-11-26T08:18:25.390+10:00Ugh! Thanks for educing me to TEARS!!! ... haha. G...Ugh! Thanks for educing me to TEARS!!! ... haha. Grief is one of those things that is just nottalked about enough in the 'real' world and so we know so little about how it works and how to deal with it. I connected so much with most of what you talk about and will probably write about my experience in a couple of weeks. December 9th is my big day for grief! It's good that you are actually taking a good look at yourself rather than just putting all that scary stuff away somewhere, which is what so many people tend to do. xxLee Leehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/02614823402670740413noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6727152802999270186.post-78477851368837068692010-11-26T06:54:02.745+10:002010-11-26T06:54:02.745+10:00Thanks Barry,
It is wonderful to be able to share...Thanks Barry,<br /><br />It is wonderful to be able to share and reflecting on others blogs....the growth process is a raw and vital one and it's a privilege to be a part of others journeys too.<br /><br />xxxRebecca Saundershttps://www.blogger.com/profile/02989087346478194985noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6727152802999270186.post-9893602829089014582010-11-26T06:43:00.352+10:002010-11-26T06:43:00.352+10:00Very moving Bex - thanks for sharing this aspect o...Very moving Bex - thanks for sharing this aspect of yourself.<br /><br />I've been pondering this very subject myself as a result of a dicussion I had with a mutual friend. Of course, my male perspective is very different and I completely acknowledge that. But still, that feeling of 'fate' or whatever we choose to call it not aligning situations in a way that allows us to be parents is never far from my mind.<br /><br />I also think you are brave and correct to acknowledge the psychological and spiritual aspects of illness. The more I learn, the more I am convinced we are foolish to ignore the mind/body link. I know it's difficult to avoid the political elements of M.E. and to avoid being told we are simply depressed but we shouldn't throw the baby out with the bathwater.<br /><br />Also, it's it wonderful how there seems to be this continuous 'therapy' taking place as we share our blogging outputs and reflect on what others are saying and meaning and how that relates to our situations? It feels like there is an ongoing organic growth process that we are all feeding into and benefitting from.<br /><br />Take care xxBarry Fotheringhamhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/16158013718479616955noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6727152802999270186.post-82903591967102270812010-11-25T22:52:03.429+10:002010-11-25T22:52:03.429+10:00Beautiful, thanks Kae....I'm glad too xxxBeautiful, thanks Kae....I'm glad too xxxRebecca Saundershttps://www.blogger.com/profile/02989087346478194985noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6727152802999270186.post-42079169458860100522010-11-25T22:29:40.856+10:002010-11-25T22:29:40.856+10:00you are incredible bex, your writing delights me i...you are incredible bex, your writing delights me in its beauty and touches me so deeply...it's always a pleasure to read even when it's about something so sad. you inspire me with your take on things constantly and i feel like i learn more about who i want to be just knowing you. peeling back the layers here too...glad we have each other to catch us when we fall. XXOOKirstenhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/16189107154073113619noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6727152802999270186.post-53545573160898666112010-11-25T21:21:17.159+10:002010-11-25T21:21:17.159+10:00Thanks Deb....you just made me cry! love you too x...Thanks Deb....you just made me cry! love you too xxxRebecca Saundershttps://www.blogger.com/profile/02989087346478194985noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6727152802999270186.post-90116872316318158912010-11-25T21:10:25.717+10:002010-11-25T21:10:25.717+10:00As always, you amaze me, hon. I am so proud of yo...As always, you amaze me, hon. I am so proud of you. Love you!Beeeme!https://www.blogger.com/profile/12951896707785655732noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6727152802999270186.post-21775502040149130622010-11-25T21:06:44.972+10:002010-11-25T21:06:44.972+10:00That's so true Cusp ...the part about finally ...That's so true Cusp ...the part about finally being able to 'forgive' myself!<br /><br />Thanks for your insightful, encouraging comments.Rebecca Saundershttps://www.blogger.com/profile/02989087346478194985noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6727152802999270186.post-6173589844215200862010-11-25T21:03:28.922+10:002010-11-25T21:03:28.922+10:00What a wise, sensitive and beautifully written pos...What a wise, sensitive and beautifully written post. It's so interesting for me to watch other people like yourself discovering HSP and seriously considering that personality and temperament may well play a part in a condition like M.E. and/or Fibro. When I first found out about HSP and read Elaine's book it really helped me to see things in another way and almost 'forgive' myself.<br /><br />When I finally really crashed ten years ago it was after a long, long period of so much loss, so much grief and yet I held it altogether. I longed to let it all out but I felt I needed to 'stay strong' and carry on because so many people depended on me. Instead of admitting how I felt to myself and others I stuffed it all back in and so my body and soul manifested the pain in a different way and down I went into the M.E. spiral.<br /><br />I hope you'll find a comforting and dependable way to face these aspects of your journey. You certainly face the prospect with courage and creativity xCusphttps://www.blogger.com/profile/10717783581169397585noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6727152802999270186.post-44861113413916916342010-11-25T20:43:17.008+10:002010-11-25T20:43:17.008+10:00Thanks Melinda...xxxThanks Melinda...xxxRebecca Saundershttps://www.blogger.com/profile/02989087346478194985noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6727152802999270186.post-85781580411115018862010-11-25T20:41:15.691+10:002010-11-25T20:41:15.691+10:00I really felt what you were writing about. Novembe...I really felt what you were writing about. November hold much grief for me too. I would love to be able to express myself half as well as you. XXXAnonymousnoreply@blogger.com